I got the feeling of satisfying of happiness. I think I do. But when time flies by, I am realize that there is something wrong. Suddenly one question is popped up on my head, running back and forth, falling down just like rain in the wrong period. It's "Why I feel bad after helping someone? Is it right? I hurt myself instead." I have been observing this, trying to figure it out. And this morning I thought I found the answer. It's because I always say 'yes' when I actually want say 'no'. I'm hurt because my trust has been tarnished little by little. Last night, I was decided to say 'no' when someone came to me asked if I can lend him some money. Well, actually it's not about the money. It's about my trust. I actually tell him the truth why I couldn't lend him some money. But, I would feel bad to myself when I decided to say 'yes'. Like I said before, I would gonna hurt myself. And in my opinion that's not kind o...